A Nightly Practice That Will Set You Free

We often think protecting our energy means pushing the world away.
We cut cords. We isolate. We control.

For years, that was my idea of safety. If I could manage my environment, stay positive, and avoid conflict, then nothing could hurt me.

But that wasn’t protection, that was fear dressed as spirituality.

When I got sick, really sick, I built invisible walls around my life. I didn’t want anyone’s energy to interfere. I didn’t want advice, help, or even love unless it was what I thought was right. Unless it agreed with me.

What I called protection and boundaries were really walls built from arrogance and fear. I was protecting myself from my own blind spots — from the ways I actually needed to grow in order to heal.

I believed healing would happen on my own, in the way I thought it should. But real healing requires humility. It requires opening up, admitting that I don’t know everything, and being willing to learn.

Isolation doesn’t protect you. It hardens you.
It keeps out the very light that could heal you.

The Turning Point

Over time, I began to see that the real danger wasn’t coming from outside of me — it was inside. It was all the things I didn’t want to look at: my impatience, my pride, my control, my defensiveness.

These blind spots were the true source of my suffering. They created emotional reactivity that drained my energy and kept me stuck in cycles of illness and frustration. When someone reflected one of those blind spots, I used to get defensive or shut down. I wanted to protect my image of being “good”, “wise”, or “healed”.

I was so obsessed with being perfect that I stopped being honest. But honesty is what heals.

The practice became learning to stay. To turn toward what was uncomfortable instead of running away. To see the truth not as something that makes me bad, but as something that helps me grow.

Life isn’t trying to attack you. It’s trying to help you. Every uncomfortable mirror is grace in disguise.

We push away help constantly because we want to be right. But when you finally admit you’re imperfect, life becomes lighter.

You realize that truth doesn’t shame you — it frees you.

The Nightly Practice of Confession

Confession is not about guilt. It’s about liberation.

It’s a spiritual hygiene that keeps the heart light and the mind clear.

Every night before bed, I sit at my altar, close my eyes, and run through my day. I look for the places where I didn’t live in alignment — where I was harsh, reactive, controlling, proud, or afraid.

And I speak them out loud.

• “I was impatient.”
• “I ignored my intuition.”
• “I snapped when I could have softened.”
• “I distracted myself when I could have prayed.”

I say these things not to punish myself, but to release them. To stop carrying the weight of pretending I’m better than I am.

When you confess, you stop performing. You meet life with honesty instead of image. You meet God, Spirit, or the Universe with nothing to hide.

And the miracle is this: when nothing is hidden, nothing can be taken from you.

Try It Tonight: A Ritual for Spiritual Protection and Healing

Before bed, take a few deep breaths. Reflect on your day. Run through every moment that felt reactive, fearful, or disconnected.

Then ask yourself:

• Where today did I act out of fear or control?
• Where did I close my heart when I could have opened it?
• What truth needs to be spoken — even if only to myself?
• What am I ready to forgive myself for?
• What can I release so I can start tomorrow lighter?

Speak your answers out loud. Don’t fix them. Don’t justify them. Just release them.

You’ll feel the relief instantly.

That softness — that honesty — is your protection.

Because honesty is the highest protection. It protects your energy, your integrity, your peace, and your capacity to love.